now that i have finished marking, i can sit by the window and stare at the moon. it's truly beautiful. yesterday was mid-autumn festival and it's said that tomorrow night's moon will be the roundest, brightest and most beautiful.
@ncy thinks i'm sad. she says only sad people thinks the moon is beautiful. um...maybe a little, today. not sure if it's physical exhaustion (the gym work from yesterday) or the conversation i had with vp this afternoon, or from marking those sets of "cannot be rationalished" scripts?
vp says i should come up with some plans to get myself out of this "situation", otherwise i'll still be in the same "situation" next year. i told him i was a happy, peaceful, satisfied and confident person 2 years ago. he asked, "so what happened?" i smiled. because i don't think the conversation was getting anywhere except making me feel worse.
about the scripts. some of the kids did surprising well. but most others did not show any sign of urgency. it's as if exams are the last thing on their minds. perhaps that's really the case. but why am i still disappointed? after all these years, shouldn't i hv gotten used to that already? what's wrong with me? what's wrong with us?
SC retired recently. i hv total admiration and respect for people like her. i'm so tired already. how do they manage to hang on till the end?
take a look at the moon, take a walk along the beach, watch a movie, read a book, bake a cake, blow a candle... Happy retirement, SC.
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I could tahan for so long because eons ago, the system wasn't so demanding but it is still flattering to have your respect and admiration. :)
The moon on the 16th nite was really nice, i was driving into my carpark and i had the moon rise between two blocks of HDB flats, with the 7pm lighting just on! the moon was round and big. I thot it was quite joyous to see such a beautiful sight, and not sad! perfect moment.
maybe vp should advise how you can get out of the situation. seems like he had plans.
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