ran in the rain

it wasn't intended.

when i started running, the rain had already stopped and i thought the weather was too good not to run. so i put on my shoes and was just feeling grateful that I somehow enjoyed running when it started to drizzle again :)

i like running, just like i enjoy reading. i'm thankful that i can read and get to enjoy a nice book when i feel like doing so. some of the kids in school can't read and i feel sorry for them.

reading and running gets my mind off things. and i remember pottery helped too. i'm not too good with my hands but those few hours when i worked on clay, that helped.

as i was running earlier and the ipod playing, i thought of the days when i was learning how to play the violin. mum went behind dad's back to let me take lessons and we had to hide the instrument at grandma's place and practise only when dad was at work. and when everyone else was enjoying their weekends, i'd have to take bus 155 from changi to toa payoh. it was dreadful and i hated every moment of it.

so now, i tell parents they have to be present with their kids. many kids in school come from such complicated families. it is a miracle how they can still be nice to me each day.

i'm starting to enjoy my new instrument. now, i pick up my cello and practise, without being told :) this is what i love about it: i do it not because i have to do it but because i want to do it :) this is just like what sup asked, "what's the difference?" we told her that here at NLS, we do things because we want to do them, but many of our colleagues elsewhere do them because they have to. that's the difference.

running in the rain feels real, and cool. i love it :)